A Word to the Bummed-Out

Ecclesiastes 1:1-18
I John 2:1-2; 7-11

"....Yet I am writing you a new commandment that is true in him and in you,
because the darkness is passing away and the true light is already shining."

I have always found it curious when the book of Ecclesiastes is requested for the funeral of one much loved. The passage chosen, of course, is the one popularized in the sixties: For everything [turn, turn, turn] there is a season [turn, turn, turn], and a time for every purpose under heaven: a time to be born and a time to die. Therein lies the relevance of the passage to a funeral, I suppose, along with a mention of all the other times on our hands: a time to kill and heal, weep and laugh, mourn and dance, love and hate, a time to keep and a time to throw away (Is this what we're doing at the edge of an open grave?). The problem, theologically, is that all these times are ticked off by Koheleth, the Preacher, as though they were on a par: all, says he, is vanity. So then, taking this book of wisdom at its word, we are left with the futility of it all, the purposelessness of human existence...left to say, as has been said of Koheleth's philosophy: life is just one inconsequential thing after another, and then you die. I do not like to read Ecclesiastes at funerals.

Rather, I read Ecclesiastes, in all honesty, in the midst of life's doldrums: in the middle of winter, in the muddle of gray skies and too much rain, in the dark season which harries my fear of being inconsequential and turns hours on end toward idle futility. On the days when I have had it with running the human race and would just as soon retire to the solitude of my own mean thoughts, I open the Bible to Ecclesiastes. As Louise Erdrich put it, "Ecclesiastes speaks to people in tough binds, people with vendettas, a bone to pick, no dog to kick, the sour-grapers, the hurt, those who've never shucked off their adolescent angst." It speaks to people for whom life is not fair... and it is never their fault. It speaks to people for whom life is empty...and it is never their responsibility. It speaks, in one way or another, at one time or another, to us all.

Though that fact does not stop me from wondering how the book of Ecclesiastes ever made it into the canon: this is both mystery and miracle. For it is blind to God's purposes revealed in the very pages on either side of its complaint, and is therefore bound to fate's indifference toward human whining. Yet without the angst of Ecclesiastes included in the biblical witness, a part of our humanity--the bummed-out part, to put it in Erdrich's words--would be less addressed by God's written word. With it, there is not a part of our human cry which escapes God's understanding. For in these verses, we are given to recognize ourselves as contrary, plaintive, parsimonious in our gratitude, proudly arrogant in our conclusion that human existence is no more than a throw-away prize, sadly accurate in our belief that life is simply unfair.

But we are given to recognize more. And the more we recognize in these verses, I believe the more we understand the world Christ came to redeem.In the first place, given its insistence on life's vanity, Ecclesiastes presents us with a perspective on human existence which both mirrors the flatness of our secular culture and plays at the edges of our own faith when the season seems bleak and we are at loose ends. Verse after verse, we are reminded of the coincidence between belief in a God who is up to something in human history, and our being given reason enough to get up in the morning...the coincidence between being bummed-out, and believing in nothing much beyond our small selves.

For Koheleth, God either has no purpose in creation, or has so hidden the purpose from human seeking that life has no shape, no direction, no order: "When I applied my mind to know wisdom," he writes, "and to see the business that is done on earth, how one's eyes see sleep neither day nor night, then I saw all the work of God, that no one can find out what is happening under the sun. However much they may toil in seeking, they will not find it out; even though those who are wise claim to know, they cannot find it out."

He is saying that he sees no hint of God's hand on human life. He is saying, for all of his diligent efforts to find God out, he has been met with silence. Therefore, without a greater purpose revealed in the little details of our days--our work and our play, our sleeping and our wakefulness, our keeping and throwing away, our tearing and sewing, our loving and hating--without a greater purpose revealed in and through these little details, none of it matters. So you weep and laugh, so you mourn and dance, so you embrace and refrain from embracing.

So you stay married or get divorced, so you have an abortion or carry a child, so you endure the pain or put a plastic bag over your head: if there is no clue that God is up to something in human history, one way or another, then any order or direction or purpose we may devise for ourselves, any action we may take or refrain from taking, is vanity. Appearance. Our lives may look purposeful to the world, but we are going nowhere...our hours may appear to be productive, but emptiness overtakes us in the end. Because, you see, we've made it all up, these lives of ours...and without the gift of truth and purpose given from outside our made-up lives, when things get bleak, we are finally left with only darkness on our hands. Bummed-out is barely adequate to describe the experience of living in the world without some hint of God's hand in human history. "We are turned round and round in this world, like yonder windlass, " Moby Dick's Ahab laments, "and Fate is the handspike."

Fate is the handspike. If in the first place, Koheleth presents us with a perspective on human existence lived without purpose, and so mirrors the flatness of our secular culture, Koheleth, in the second place, presents us with a perspective on human existence which bears witness to the faith of a fatalist: life lived at the mercy of nothing much, subject to the indifference of the universe, victim of circumstances beyond our control. These times, you see, simply come upon us and we are not responsible: a time to kill or heal, to weep or laugh, to mourn or dance. These times come upon us from without, often strange and uninvited, and we are re-actors in a drama going nowhere...which, nevertheless, may be namelessly blamed for our lot. Fate is what Koheleth has left to believe in, if God has no purpose in giving us life, if God's purpose is so hidden as to seem hideous at a glance.

Thus when the skies are more gray than blue, and life has taken a turn not to my liking, and the road ahead is obsured by the fog in my mind, I turn to Ecclesiastes for company, for a companion with which to rail against my fate...against all that is not my fault...against, as one philosopher put it, "the impersonal and the antipersonal, pervading time and space--determining events, and shaping society so comprehensively that there is no escape....We live today," he concludes, "in unusually fateful times."

We live, I would say, in times when human actions are increasingly on a par...when the rules by which we once lived are like cut-flowers in relation to the reason they once were given...when actions are easily blamed on circumstances beyond our control--a distant mother, a controlling father, a calculating boss. We live in a time when the time to be born and the time to die have no coincidence with life's dignity...when a time to weep and laugh are regulated by media's blitz...when a time for war and a time for peace hang on opinion polls. Vanity, all is vanity! Hence, I tell you, the more we recognize our own fateful times in these verses, the more we understand the world Christ came to redeem, the more we understand the world in which we now live and our desparate need of a Savior.

So turn Koheleth's perspective, for a moment, inside out and upside down, God become human. Koheleth's angst, spread across these holy pages, must have made it into the canon because, in the middle of our arrogant tantrums, lest we miss the point, God is determined to address us...and in the muddle of our bummed-out lives Christ makes haste to come to us...and at the sound of our sour-grapes God surely has a gospel to speak. Without Ecclesiastes inserting our tantrums into the story of our redemption, God's entry into the human condition may not have been low enough, empty enough, honest enough.

The metaphor which comes to mind is that of Reynolds Price, who reflects on being forced, after becoming a quadrapalegic, to move at the height of a seated man. "Upright as I'd been for five decades," he muses, "I'd been able to share King Lear's neglect of the rawbone human misery that huddles beneath us. Reduced to its eye level now as the homeless lay and crouched on sidewalks--and meeting their fuming gaze as a standing walker seldom does--I comprehended more than before Lear's insight on the storm-swept heath:
Poor naked wretches, wheresoe'er you are,
That bide the pelting of this pitiless storm,
How shall your houseless heads and unfed sides,
Your looped and windowed raggedness, defend you
From seasons such as these? O, I have ta'en
Too little care of this! Take physic, pomp;
Expose thyself to feel what wretches feel....

Ecclesiastes is the earnest that God in Christ has exposed himself to feel what purposeless wretches feel (for our wretchedness is splayed across these pages), that God in Christ has addressed those who bide the pelting of this pitiless storm (for our whining complaint is heard throughout these verses), that God in Christ has come to defend us from seasons such as these.

Into the darkness of such seasons, Christ comes to shed light on God's purposes. To be sure, the light of revelation, far from blinding us with its brightness, seems barely sufficient. Nevertheless, its truth requires us to adjust our sight, still in much darkness, toward every intimation of meaning in time. To wit: given the intimations of meaning let loose in his birth, no longer can we speak of an impersonal fate playing with our inconsequential days, for we are addressed by God-in-person reduced to eye level and meeting our fuming gaze with a promised Kingdom. Given the intimation of meaning let loose in his death and rising, no more can our vendetta be against God because we must die, but can only be against ourselves for refusing, really, to live. He is God's word to the bummed-out, to people in tough binds, people with vendettas, a bone to pick, no dog to kick, the sour-grapers, the hurt, those who've never shucked off their adolecent angst. He takes it all in and returns it to us redeemed by a greater purpose than we could ever invent. For through him we are given to see not fate but a destiny which is ours to deny, in him ...we are given to hear not silence but the sound of judgment against our petty complaints...in him we are met with a purpose which will not be denied its claim upon our little lives.

"Although Koheleth seems a basically sour sort of fellow," concludes Erdrich, "he comes to hard-won affirmation. He takes what he can get...In his youth...he piles up wealth, beautiful lands, orchards, buildings, hits the bottle, eats a lot of darkness. His wisdom increases through grief, and he acknowledges the frustrating enigma that most of our deepest learning occurs when we are humbled by suffering." His words ought not to be saved for our funerals, my friends, but read in the midst of our angst, lest we doubt that God, at the height of our tantrums, meets our fuming gaze with a grace which we do not deserve, with a destiny we could never intimate without his light, with evidence of a Savior given for seasons such as this. Thanks be. Amen.

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